Life.. once again..

 I searched for my blog after a long long time.. just wanted to revisit some feelings that are here yet again.

I confronted with someone in really strong voice, yet again I challenged the woman in me. Yet again, I tested the trust, yet again I tested the cultures.

Yet again, it’s a reminder of your existence 

Yet again, someone I am challenged for being me

Yet again, the fight started

Yet again, here I am

But not this time, the fight is changed.. it’s just not me.

It is the fight of existence and I do exist and so do every other person. Everyone need that trust & respect. 

Age & sex makes no difference. It’s a fight for equality and it will never change…. But I did, I am & I will stand against it

Relationships - soo simple yet soo complicated

I believe that every relationship starts with trust and friendship.. the relationship that we adore has certainly something attached to it, say it feeling but its always the trust...
We had this discussion the other day, why we have to leave some of our most beautiful relations behind us while forming the ultimate relation with the most important person of our life..
Say it or not, I believe feelings never die.. you may make efforts to keep them un-noticed in some corner of your heart but they still exist...
There is always a bonding that we develop with certain people, which is above and beyond anything.. and it is unfair to leave it unnoticed... Why cant your ex-bf/gf br your friends?? You have all rights to show our respect to each and every person we trust...

But this is one side of the coin... people say you should not see your Xs, as its a disrespect to your current commitment in life... but why is that??
Is it not more about us than thinking about the state of mind of the other person?

I saw a movie about a gay couple, and most of the people in the cinema just find one of the scene quite sentimental..
A man came after many years to meet the ultimate love of his life, who though gay is married to a woman due to social pressure..
The meeting of the two guys, brought tears in the eyes of many people around us... The relation was known to his wife all through these years.. and she just feels so nice to reunite the two lovers...
What would have been the state of mind of the woman all through the years.. she has been cheated but she just lived with it all through her life and even loved her better half even when he told her the truth...

This is a respect, which is above and beyond everything..
The happiest moments are always the ones when our loved ones are happy.. so why to ask your love, leave any of there happiness behind them... respect their feelings.. trust them with whatever they do... thats the only zest of a relationship to me :)
because the sad truth of life is death so be happy and make everyone around you happy...
and don't leave any relation behind you, to repent later..

Complications are just your state of mind.. and only you can conquer it..
So try make things simple with Trust and Respect, the two mantras of a Relationship..

A Happy day...

Happiness can come in any form.. a gift, a holiday, an instance or a person...

It came in my life as a person...

Its one of the happiest day of my life, why????????

Its just because of this person, who whenever comes just brings lots of happiness with himself... at least for me...

Whenever I meet him, I find a new side of his...

and this time his knowledge, and his happy face that just brings soo much happiness in everyone's life..

and what just brings me here is that real smile and the laughter that he has brought with himself...

I owe u alot my friend...

Lots of happiness...

Will pray to God, he gives you whatever you really deserve in life.... THANKS :)

An Apology....

I see her mentioning him in each word coming from her heart...

Whenever I have seen those feeling in him, they were for her..............

There is a mail in his inbox, an apology, saying 'I am sorry for what I did...'

He is happy to see that, showed me as well that finally she realised.... I knew she isn't bad, it was just because of the moment....

When last time you came to me with tears in your eyes, they were for her...

You do a lot to prove that she is no more in your thoughts or around you, but everything you expect, I see in her....

Whenever she mentions you, its always a 'Thank You' and the most special person, who will always remain close to her... in thoughts or actions... or dreams....

Whenever you mention the best moment of your life, its always with her....

It just makes me think, " Do I owe a APOLOGY????"

Quote...

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 
― Marilyn Monroe

Superstitions....

We grew up hearing lot of things, which though feels stupid but we still follow them...
When we are going out and a black cat crosses your  way, WAIT,
if someone sneezes, when you are going out.. WAIT
when some one is going out don't take the names like 'oil', 'achaar' etc..

I heard some of them since childhood, even followed them sometime without even giving a thought.. eating curd before going for exams, or saying 'dahi-machli'
Don't know what this combination is... it just means 'Best of Luck'.

So many superstitions that we follow in our daily life,
I think its okay to follow them till its not affecting anything, for good or bad, I am really not sure...
Seen some time back on television, people throw there newborns from a height in a mosque for getting God's blessings... People just follow it, without thinking what will happen if the person standing below is not able to catch your child..

Its good to think about Almighty, but why to blame him for anything thats just in your mind...

I woke up one morning and as it happens most of the time, started sneezing the moment I got off my bed... It was my holiday, and my hubby was ready to go to office. I didn't know that my sneezing is effecting him anyway.. A little later he said, 'stop sneezing, so that I can make my way to office' and I can't do anything else but 'Aaaaaaaa cheeeeeeeeeeeeeee...    ooopppsss....' and a laughter...

one more incident that catches my mind.. In modern India its a normal thing to call your hubby by his name, while its totally out of question for the older generation..
As we had a love marriage, its nomal for me to call him by his name.. after marriage we went to someone's home and there was a good discussion with a jest that husband's life reduces when you call him by his name, and my Mom approved to it saying that she has never called his sons by their name because of the same reason.. I was not quite aware of the discussion and came out of room calling my hubby dears name...... My husband still laughs narrating it to everyone....
It brings a thought to my mind, I can understand a reason that earlier husbands' used to be quite older to wives, therefore as a matter of respect you don't used to call him by his name...
but if you say that it reduces the husband's life, I have a question why does it not happen with wives... probably you are making efforts since ages to reduce your wife's life....
Stop givng man all these priviledges :P

Superstitions are just in your mind, there are days, numbers or moments that becomes your lucky numbers..
I dont say dont follow them, but don't let them RULE YOU....

Own your actions, instead of blaming someone else................

Maa..........

Its always a peaceful and sacred moment for me seeing the statue of Mother Mary holding Christ. I could stand there for hours just seeing the love of a Mother for her child. The statue always  gives a very sacred feeling..

Maa, this word in itself means........ a word of love, trust, confidence, respect....

This is one relation which has just Love....

I remember that day in the tube, heard a voice 'Go go go go goooo....' I turned around and saw a Mumma guiding her 3 babies in the crowd. The confidence on her face just says it all, and her 3 chickens were just listening that 1 voice amongst the great chaos in the tube... Just loved that expression on her face taking care of her  babies...

Whenever I recall any of my childhood memories its always has one person that I see holding trust in whatever we were doing. Not sure if that confidence just comes with the motherhood. standing for your children, trusting them guiding them, as and when required.. Maa, my Maa still I could not see anyone replacing her. Her love, just putting your head in her lap gives you soo much of peace, relieves you of all the stress and tension. Seems that could be the best place I could ever think of, miss it soo much sometimes..

A child always goes back to her Mother, though she has scolded her.. she cries but its just her Mom who can bring her back to peace...

Seen her soo many times.. That warm hug that Mishu gives to Di, could not equivalent for her love for anyone else... 

Whenever I think of my next step in life, I always think if I could have soo much..

Being a Mom is not just giving birth, it means owning a life.. A life for which you are the ultimate trust..

Can I have that confidence taking care of my ANSH....

I really have lots of questions... I know the answers can only be the motherhood.... seeing my part in my lap.... Will he/she be able to see that peace and trust in me...

Maa I really miss you searching for lots of these answers..

Love you alot....